Lost and Found

I really cant write okay. But since "they" say its good for the soul n all, its good to listen to 'them" sometimes.After a tensed, too much of thoughts,and very stressed out past few days...,baby I'm back! :D

I learn that:

1. I'm alone.
2. I have friends when I need them.
3. I should start another blog and be anonymous.
4. Should start reading more.
5. Should do things which I would enjoy with myself.
6. All of the above (except,maybe 3)would help me be a better parent.
7. I have to figure out a way for people to not take me so seriously even when I'm joking!!(Y'knw those intellectual jokes bwahahaha)
8. Should start smiling fully. Friends say mine is mostly half smile.I blame it on the blogging world...where even when someone writes a joke, would u really sit infront of a screen and lol?laugh out LOUD? do you? I dont.
9. Should start taking invitations where there is dressing up and wearing make-ups are required. Thts a tough one.But shall try.
10. Exercise.Hmm.Since they have kids gym too, I'm being regular :) Yea,i wont forget the sexy picture promise ;)

Its nice to be happy and hopeful again.

The new blog will start soon.Or it has already started:D who knows.Catch me, can you?

Beep

Been listening to Osho (yup) and then some relaxation mantras and music. Its working for me pretty well.Helps flatten your wrinkled inner peace. I don't recommend staring at the screen.But put on your headphone ,lie down on a flat surface,close your eyes. Takes a while, but at some point the mind goes blank.Which is nice.

Try one here.



I'm gonna write a blank poem to my unknown soul mate blaming him for not being in my life. Would have avoided many unpleasant situations you know...if only...you were here.
Well..thats the dreamer me talking.

The loner in me says,I'll never leave you alone.Sigh.

The realist me says...go get a job.

The writer in me says, you lost it babe.This is not even a writers block.Its intelligence block.duh.

Read "Olive Kitteridge". You should too.Reading is coming to me again.

Sorry for the uneven flow of words.Cant think of writing something like....the heaviness of my heart touched the broken pointed cold and hard pieces of glass that made a heavenly sound of windows vista opening up to you every dawn. heh...gotta go.cant write. wont write.

Heart

I started reading my poems to my daughter recently and today as i was making chilli paneer in the kitchen,she came with a request.She made her own poem and wanted me to type it down for her. So here it is :) ,my proudest post.

In the sky
There is a flower
From somebody
Who wants to give it to another person
And another person found it
And he kept the flower.
He thought about what he wanted
He wanted an old friend
And that old friend was from his school.
On a fall day he found a leaf falling from the sky.


THE END

Gotta do...

 

Walking through these paths
I have loved,wished,sighed,smiled
Thoughts of you does such tricks
And quite strangely arise such a day
When thou ought to say so long
To a thought that might steal thou heart
When one marvel and whisper to the wind
Was that you who stole my heart?
And the breeze would choke you in a deep cuddle
Roaring in thy ears a masterful lullaby
That is when one must visualize
Time
That says,thou must not fall for a thought
It is but only a vision
Delicate than a dream.

Marching away to unknown rhythms
So much to do
Until then,adios,sayanora,chao
Goodbye,
Dear blog.

Shall be back,
But a lil longer this time.

Be well all and thank you for reading my thoughts.
Acknowledging and Accepting.
Strangers we shall be.
Or not.
:)

Random Bol and Things I have pada.

Taught my daughter her first hindi lesson.Yea I did,stop raising your brow.I taught her to say "Aap kaise hei".Well..i actually said "Aap kaise ho" and she corrected me,mama maybe it is "hei" and i just agreed with her.Oh well.I feel both are okay.Hei??

Four days of sneezing, coughing and taking care of another sneezing ,coughing and burning with fever at night girl,wasnt that tough.But gave me an unusual headache.The wet towel in the forehead thing while burning with fever works y'know.And she quiet enjoyed it too hehe.

From losing some 18 pounds to gaining back most of it to now getting back to that 'I dont want to eat so much' state is good.This time i do plan to put up a before and after pic.Before I go back to my before again and after i get to the after stage.Hmm.It is as complicated as it sounds.

I learned from someone today that anger is a good emotion.That people are often afraid of anger.But you certainly need to know what is good anger and what is bad anger.The controlled and the uncontrolled.

I learned that Punjabis dont use curry leaves.They use bay leaves!!!!!OY munde,try curry leaves and dekho!

This week's job search was nice.Came across a wonderful job which I would love love to do and have applied with so much hope.Praying.Sigh.

I'm proud of the fact that I'm so much content with myself that all the negatives people throw towards me, doesnt bother me much.And I'm glad i could trigger my mind towards good things than think, ponder about negatives.

Do you believe in how your mind can make things work for you exactly the way you want it?Only that you cannot choose the time.But it will come.Time is god's choice, I guess.Just a thought.

Alrite will leave at that note.Gotta clean the house and then visit the mall.Job shopping :)

Say Cheese!

The illusion of you in green lights,blue lights
travelling throughout my day dream breaks.
Helps to smile
Amidst the clouds
A thunder
Or a fall.
Helps to smile
At a hopeful hop and a skid in the mud
Raindrops on my new notebook
The traditional eyeball stare
Pain on my knees,
the weight gain with ease.

The illusion of you in perfect colors
Travelling throughout my day dream breaks
Helps to smile
At life
At my hopeful dreams
Of you.

Fall Colors